Journal Entry #75 - Happy Independence Day...Just Simply Talking

 JOURNAL ENTRY #75

Name: Manley M Collins

Social Security Number: 5 7 9 – * * – 6 5 4 1

Date of Birth: 06/21

Place of Birth: Washington, District of Columbia

Country of Birth: United States of America

Date: July 4, 2023

TOPIC: Happy Independence Day...Just Simply Talking

Massachusetts Commission Against Discrimination (MCAD) with SplitSpot and Pine Street Inn is in the appeals process.  For some odd reason, I am telling them racism and discrimination during and after the end result of any situation. I am telling before applying for services and jobs, and now no one is hiring or accepting me for housing for telling before.  What is the importance of Massachusetts Commission Against Discrimination?  Just like Southampton, what is the importance of Boston Public Health Commission?

Street money donations to me went to Boston Public Library (BPL), Massachusetts General Hospital (MGH), and Alpha Phi Alpha Fraternity, Inc.

I obtained my Zumba certification and started practicing plus putting videos on YouTube. I have joined the important Zumba groups.  I got my first education course Cueing Like A Pro for free.  My first instructor class was in Foxboro, Massachusetts at Fit Factory. It was fun and I was the only African (Cameroonian)-American male in the class.  The photo is on my photostreams.  Zumba did let me know I am independent contractor while doing classes.  Along with my fitness coach interview from OrangeTheory, I received the inside track of how much personal trainers and group fitness instructors are paid per hour.  I will be working a lot.  I toured a space using Peerspace to host my first class.  I am debating whether to go back to the Hartford Business Insurance or try K and K business insurance for the first time.

I am working with Massachusetts Vocational Rehabilitation Commission and they have done a wonderful job in helping revamp my resume, begin getting the motivation to job search, and listen to similar topics to DeVry University and University of Phoenix.  They tried to push me to talk about my future like I was crazy, but I simply told them the past and present issues at hand.  The only future situation is the upcoming Olympics 2024.

I attended another Inclusion Summit with the University of Phoenix.

My project and program management skills are very beneficial in managing the limited income and benefits.

My Supplemental Nutrition Assistance Program (SNAP) or food stamps benefits went from $450 per month during pandemic with federal help, then to $200 per month with state help, and now to $20 per month a reality in having cash available, and mind you I am still under the poverty line and low-income status.

My Medicare benefits are coming for the first time.  I had to inquire about how to get my medical premium paid for and MassHealth Medicaid had an answer for me plus an application. I sent the application right back in. At the same time, I returned back to my roots with applying for Blue Cross Blue Shield Medicare Part C with the ultimate plan including all the bells and whistles.  BCBS also offers international travel insurance plans too.  I am excited.  Hello again Anthem BCBS and CareFirst BCBS.  Nothing the other insurance policies, but I was introduced with BCBS when I had my internship with the federal government.

After suppressing my sugar for a long time, and no sugar and carbs diet, my body went haywire in March 2023, I gained ten (10) pounds because metabolism or the hunger gene or starvation body notification kept going off like crazy.  I am drinking plenty of Powerade and Vitamin Water, eating a lot of 7-Eleven Pizzas and McDonald's French Fries combined with my nutritional shakes, Lenny and Larry's cookies, One A Day Multivitamin, and Metamucil.  I went back to Digestive Advantage gummies again.  Someone really loved my glowing skin, which means the collagen vitamin powders is working.

I attended a Meetup Memorial Day Picnic in Cambridge and it was fun. I met plenty of people. We played throw the football. I saw some new games that I never seen before. I spoke with a variety of different people.  I played UNO and got some free food at the park.  Thanks for a great time, Tal as the host and others.  We shared food and drinks as well.

City of Boston Election Board sent me another rejection notice stating I am not allowed to vote, but I cannot help the automated processes connected to the RMV and any other departments to capture new residents.

Massachusetts is finally giving up sex in 2023, very surprising and I wonder why.

I attended the United States Department of State Foreign Service seminar. It was very enlightening and helpful to understand the positions.  I gave real-time questions and got real-time answers.

I have a mentee from the University of Phoenix and met twice already to help guide her during her doctoral journey and process.  I attended the University of Phoenix mentor and mentee conference in June 2023.  It feels good helping someone else during their journey.

I changed therapist services until I find the right one.  I left Boston Medical Center, then went to Life Stance, and then Trust Therapists, and then TCA Counseling Group, and then Boston Neurobehavioral.

I attended the Volontaire Paris Olympics 2024 Webinar, which gave more insight on the volunteer process.  I am glad an investigation is going on regarding the Paris Olympics 2024 ticketing process, but I could not find any affordable seats for any of my events, such as athletics and basketball.  Remaining athletic tickets were $900 per seat and basketball medaling ceremony games did not have anything.

I spent my birthday in Raynham, Massachusetts at the Marriott Courtyard. I did the gym, went to Walmart, ate at Applebee's, listen to audiobooks, synchronize my computer with the cloud, my smartphone and new USB drive, socialized over the sex apps and finally got one friend to come over, and slept naked.  Yes, I made phone call to the Federal Express attorney team.  I saw somewhat of the suburban and countryside of Greater Boston area. 

Celebrating by communicating like no tomorrow across social media apps and at the Marriott Courtyard plus switching rooms in a different part of Massachusetts.  Massachusetts has mobile homes parks, ya'll, all neat, clean, groomed to a 'T', and sparkly.  It is my first trip on MBTA's Purple line or regional rail and GBTA bus system.

Black Entertainment Television "12 Years a Slave" movie pissed me the heck off.  United States of America truly showed the separation of and disruption the African-American/Black family.  It is still done through the courts.

Eric Tolendano and Olivier Nakache French film "The Intouchables" movie was fresh and exciting about two heterosexual men taking care of each other and serving a purpose in each other lives.  English subtitles were great.  I was able to match the language with how they say it French.  However, the movie does depict Africans or Black people are the same no matter where we are.  It was combined sad and happy emotional ending.

I lost another USB drive or taken from my back pocket, but re-purchased another one with storage upgrade. Still sending everything to the technology cloud.

I ate my meal (grilled salmon, steamed broccoli, mac and cheese, mashed potatoes, vanilla ice cream, and blondie) at Applebee's and got a buzz from Peach on the Beach.

I had a happy birthday. God blessed me to see another year.  Thank you and I am grateful.

I am still going to American Red Cross Boston Food Pantry and Boston Medical Center Food Pantry.

One of the individual human defendants is trying to settle and get out of a lawsuit they brought on themselves.  I do not submit. I do not tolerate racism or discrimination in any shape form or fashion.

I met with Pine Street Inn leasing department for their permanent housing locations.

I attended the Boston Public Library Morning Brew discussing the preservation of Boston communities’ histories.

I registered for the USATF Masters Championships and already booked everything.

I attended my first Tend Dental appointment. They gave a referral to O'Trafford Dental Specialists and they were going to restart the same process as Tend to provide treatment for my 20-year root canal issue.

I attended Massachusetts Superior Court Hearing regarding Southampton and met the attorney general staff member attorney representing Commonwealth of Massachusetts.  I spoke with the attorney after we got instructions from Judge and we, the attorney and I, discussed the notice of appearances and withdrawals during the case.

I had my Massachusetts Superior Court Rule 16 (Pre-Trial) Conference and it was okay.  The attorney and an unexpected individual human defendant showed up, and bombarded the Judge.  I kept calm and got my instructions.  We are in the discovery phase.  Just as fast Federal Express attorney team sending documents, and I sending the same punch or even harder back.

I did a lot of surveys.  I updated my EZPassNY account.  My Great Lakes account moved or migrated to the parent company Nelnet.  Edfinancial/IDAPP is upgrading their systems too.  I hope they are holding back the already payments made until the systems are finished upgrading.  Joel Osteen is still giving great messages.  I am still reading United States Congressmen and Congresswomen newsletters and emails.  IBM reimagined my machine after installation of another SSD PC Card upgrade...thank goodness for backups. IBM Support did help after to find the parts that were missing from my machine, which was not on the original custom order.  I signed up for another Google and FaceBook class action suit. Zoom application is becoming a more important role for my classes and meeting new individuals.

I requested my Annual Credit Report and saw some accounts as expected dropped off.  I spoke to Paris 2024 Olympics - On Location Experience for the Olympic and Paralympic Games provided okay packages, but not customizable enough for customer to enough the events of his/her choice especially when priced $15,000 plus per week.

I attended the French Library Online Conversation Club and a Soiree.  I researched more on the French language certifications. 

French Levels of Testing

Going for Nationality License, Long Term Residence Permit

DILF - initial / first - A 1.1

DELF tout public - A1, A2, B1, B2

DELF prim - A1.1, A1, A2

DELF junior/scolaire - A1, A2, B1, B2

DALF - C1, C2

Campus France levels of testing

TCF  (Test de Connaissance du Français Test of Knowledge of French)

TEF (Test d'Evaluation du français French Assessment)

DELF

DALF

I bought a new shoulder wallet and new shorts from Marshalls Clothing Store.  I repurchased my Nike athletic outfit - white top, black long spandex.

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LinkedIn Learning (formerly Lynda.com) Certifications Taken at Boston Public Library

32. (Currently on => Oracle Cloud Infrastructure Architect Professional by Oracle University)

31. Managerial Economics by Stefan Michel

30. Linux: System Maintenance by Scott Simpson

29. Programming Foundations: Database by Scott Simpson

28. Product Management First Steps by Doug Winnie

27. Introduction to Responsible Artificial Intelligence Algorithm by Martin Kemka

26. Foundations of Responsible Artificial Intelligence by Ayodele Odubela

25. Generative Artificial Intelligence for Business Leaders by Tomer Cohen

24. Microsoft Exchange Server 2019: Administration by Robert McMillen

23. The Data Science of Economic, Banking, and Finance with Barton Poulson

22. Running a Profitable Business: Understanding Cash Flow by Jim Stice and Earl Stice

21. Oracle Cloud Database Migration and Integration 2022 Professional Workshop by Oracle University

20. Project Management Foundations: Integration by Oliver Yarbrough

19. Learning Apache Tomcat by Josh Samuelson

18. Apache Web Server: Administration by Jon Peck

17. Business Analysis Foundations by Greta Blash

16. Oracle Database 19c: Basic SQL by Bob Bryla

15. Project Management Foundations: Schedules by Bonnie Biafore

14. Cybersecurity for Small and Medium Businesses: Essential Training by Kristin Judge

13. Red Hat Enterprise Linux 8 Essential Training by Grant McWilliams

12. How to Regain Control of Your Time, Energy, and Priorities by Pete Mockaitis

11. Oracle Autonomous Database by Oracle University

10. Demonstrating Accountability as a Leader by Dr. Shirley Davis

9. Essential French in Two Hours with Paul Noble by HarperCollins

8. Essential Lessons for First-Time Managers by Dave Labowitz and Madecraft

7. Deploying Exchange Server 2016 by Robert McMillen

6. Project Management Skills for Leaders

5. QuickBooks Online Essential Training (2021) by Bonnie Biafore

4. Learning Cloud Computing: Core Concepts by David Linthicum

3. Learning Oracle Database 19c by Bob Bryla

2. Setting Up a Red Hat Enterprise Linux Server by Sandra Toner

1. What is Business Analysis? by Laura Paton

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From my Nokia first cellphone to current Apple iPhone and Samsung Galaxy Smartphone Apps:

ZIN Play App is Zumba's app to replicate the website.  I can make playlists and work with the latest workouts, etc.

Massachusetts Lottery app is the ability to play the lottery, monitor the jackpot, and scan the tickets from the app.  I am impressed on my first use.

ClassBuzz is Zumba's app to create gifs and manage virtual and in-person classes.

mTicket is a Massachusetts Bay Transit Authority purple line to manage automated tickets. It worked properly. The conductors were able to scan right from the smartphone.

AirFrance is an airplane app and keeps me updated on my favorite trip from Boston to European trip.

Wix Owner is an app that helps manage my websites and new options with VistaPrint.  It works well, but VistaPrint and Wix hit a snag in letting customers change their website plan to take advantage of certain features.  Wix is the first company I provided my corporation's business paperwork and bank account information.

Virgin Pulse is a health app that works in coordination of Massachusetts General Hospital to provide wellness, mental health, and self-care support with a MGH ACO HealthPlan (MassHealth Medicaid).

OpenTable is a restaurant reservation app that worked well when a new older friend decided to treat me to Eataly Boston (La Pizza & La Pasta diner) in the Prudential Center.

Health Plan Member is a health and medical app to help manage information regarding the MGH ACO HealthPlan (MassHealth Medicaid).

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Top Ten (10) Personal Music Playlists

1. In My Feelings - Kehlani   AND   In My Feelings - Drake

2. Temperature Rising - Tory Lanez

3. Superhero - Dosseh

4. Birthday Cake - Rihanna

5. Birthday - Katy Perry

6. Rachet Birthday - Drake

7. It's Your Birthday - Luke

8. Champagne Life - Ne Yo

9. Break My Soul - Beyonce (Plus The Queens Remix and Honey Dijon Remix)

10. You Brought the Sunshine (DJ Spen Remix) - The Clark Sisters

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The audio books are still letting me know what is happening in the world and how the world thinks.  I am going through African-American/Black authors works and books because I am African-American/Black first.  If time permits and I finish the African-American/Black authors, then I will visit other races and ethnicities on similar topics.

Eric Jerome Dickey's Blackbirds was a good sibling or friends’ story.  I really loved my family and friends, but I guess I was slighted on always seeing the best version of themselves.  I could not get too angry with someone (biological father and his family) that was never there.  Thank goodness for getting through my child molestation therapy that I never encountered soft dicks or penises.  The cocks, dicks, or penises I chased after or chased after me were good and great, and each one knew how to fuck or make love.  I did meet some kings of ding-a-lings (for example 11 inches length by 7 inches round), but did not challenge myself to take them.  I want to meet a dude with diphallia or anyone as a hermaphrodite.  I still have not encountered the best besides myself.  Unfortunately, my last bottoming or submission experience was 2010 after chasing each other for five years.  I am very glad I evolved in being a dominant top or Type A or active male for females and males.  This is probably another reason for me not getting along with males because I do not submit to anyone except to a female who wants the moment for an hour or two.  I am very proud of the dominant and aggressive females that I had in life that taught me a good lesson or two in bed.  I am very proud of the super feminine and submissive females that fed my ego to the max.  It is only one vagina or pussy that I had had superpowers over me like kryptonite before I had to let her go.  Yes, if I had preference, priority order 1. Vagina or Pussy, 2. Ass or Butt, 3. Dick or Cock or Penis in any sexual activity in the present or future.  Most posts will be written in another language.  This is not a coming out story, but taking the power from those who live to disrupt my peace, harmony, and healing, and my optimistic future.  Friendships can be cherished if life can allow such closeness over time.

Eric Jerome Dickey's Genevieve was a good family story with a horny spouse.  The past can be a detrimental thing, when people have to change names and stay away from family for years or decades.  Despite all that happens in and with family, when a strong spouse goes through her final therapeutic session and stands by her man that is a bond no one can go against.  Yes, Genevieve "Lakeisha Shawnna Smith" Forbes was my favorite character.

Eric Jerome Dickey's Drive Me Crazy was okay, but highlights again the spin on journalism on high crime, affairs, and mischievous moves.  Even though, Earl "Driver" was the main character, his weakness was women and an impersonation of intelligence personality.  This story highlights the horrible side of law enforcement, and overstepping and overuse of the law enforcement powers even after someone is long gone or left the force.  This reflected back on my situations in Maryland, Ohio, and New York, "Who put all levels of law enforcement up to the decision when there was no supporting evidence?"  Ohio, I can admit I was wrong, but could have been let go with a warning.  Maryland and New York, as I mentioned an arrest for no reason, "Who made the decision?"  Washington, DC and Delaware, still chasing me until something happens for when I miss child support payments and this is because of my ignorance or lack of knowledge of having a child is a criminal offense whether in or out of wedlock, but the church and family sees a child as a blessing and then rip the family apart.  Soul stirring Rufus was my comedian in this book.  The band of the two brothers was hilarious.  Samantha "Panther" helps me understand how she came into Earl "Driver's" life and comes into play for Eric Jerome Dickey's Naughty or Nice.  Plagiarism is so real, but Corporate America rejects original thoughts from people like myself, but everyone and even the news steal ideas to what can make the headlines or makes profits.  And I am labeled the crazy one and loss all my sh*t.

Eric Jerome Dickey's Bad Men and Wicked Women was excellent.  Jake Ellis and Ken Swift were my favorite characters in this one.  I need an African male, heterosexual bull co-worker or friend like Jake Ellis in my life.  This was another action packed and suspensefully written piece of work.  Heterosexuals and Lesbians need to treat the wife right because the ones perceived weak and unsuspecting are the most powerful in a spouse's downfall.  This story did give the perspective on how everything is the same in war and fighting, and the glorified world is partially fixed especially in the fields of journalism, such as what makes the news and how a severe crime scene(s) has/have a whole lotta spin.  The good jobs perceived to be good and stable, but those getting the good and stable jobs do not realize the grunt work put into having that position.  The business of money laundering and blood money is a concept I understand regarding the San Bernadino business.  The real banks tried to show me how it is done with a little bit of my money and my own money.  Most people believe killers or murderers have no heart, but this story gave whole another perception of protection around offspring, mistreated individuals, and family. In my heyday, this is why South Carolina, Georgia, and Washington, DC knew to contact Marvell (Jake Ellis and Ken Swift combined) and he will handle it, and I do not mind reliving it for any future offspring, protected class of people that can't defend themselves, and family.  I have not killed anyone, yet, and if I did, I would not incriminate myself publicly, I would call someone like San Bernadino or ensure my DNA and GPS tracking is nowhere near the crime scene. Eric Jerome Dickey's books are having me flashback hard to my visit in 2011 to California...I actually physically saw most of the places, streets, and all he described.

Eric Jerome Dickey's A Wanted Woman was very action packed just like an action movie. A 14-hour audiobook.  The main character "The Woman of a 1,000 faces" or "Reaper" or "MX401" was very good depiction of a superb assassin.  I was highly impressed.  In combination with movies, such as John Wick, 007, Wanted, Mr. & Mrs. Smith, and Equalizer plus violent video games plus news information about gangs, they all inform me that the Cain and Abel biblical depiction of life that killing without remorse does exist. The United States legal world and business world kept driving me into a path I never saw in real life as a way to make a living or never told by education in schools/college/universities.  My foundational thought growing up was anyone dying by a gun or bullet was an accident, or someone was angry, or run away from the scene, and to always stay away from guns.  As my honest way of living is dwindling down to nothing in the United States of America, no work experience in other avenues of work, or my work experience exceeds W-2, 1099, and Corporate-to-Corporate jobs, I want to meet a real assassin who got started with or without blood money. I do not want drug dealer money because it is too complicated.  Doctoral research on my mental health issues already state that I have the capability to do it.  As a former armed security guard plus my first legal gun license permit does start the seeding.  As a former member of US Veteran Reserve Corp, I saw the weapon training at a secret location for assassins.  The name or lingo changes from calling someone a mercenary.  The lottery and lawsuits are long shots in trying to get money for all my losses.  I am going to give this sports and fitness career a try, but I am inching closer to the unconsidered side of life that is coming out for real if I remain in United States of America.  I always wondered by inflation and expensive locations going up, how people could afford that lifestyle?!?!  I could travel and know the world another way.  Honest living does take on a different connation.  The hurt each other never stopped since the beginning of life.

Eric Jerome Dickey's One Night is a book recommended for everyone.  I thought just like the character of "Man from Orange County."  I am no more NAIVE about women.  I really, really, sincerely really did not know about how WOMEN think, process, and do sh*t. Jacqueline Francesca Parker Summers is one h*ll of a woman.

Best line: Crazy Got to Understand Crazy

2nd Best line:  Who wants to battle for Cheesecake?

Me: 20 babies...but I will settle to make or have four (4) babies...or at least keep trying.  Thank God for this life's break to understand the world.

Eric Jerome Dickey's Naughtier than Nice was super naughty and connected so well.  My favorite characters turned into an insane asylum with everyone stubborn.  It was a complete opposite of the Naughty or Nice. This book does put in perspective what people do to get money or materialistic things or destroy their own lives. Criminals, con artists, people constantly changing their names or identity, blackmailers, and women or men scorn over a bad breakup do not come to me to pull a scam or got residual feelings.  Everything was done the first time around in my life and my apologies for being Fort Knox, US Federal Reserve Bank, the Pentagon, and the entire United States Department of Defense forged as one unit.  Thanks to all the servicemembers men and women who do serve in the military and fought for the USA to be free to be crazy.  I like somewhat of the James Baldwin connection using the Beale Streets character.  Again, everyone said I was crazy or insane.  Now, I am definitely going somewhere else to have another country fight for my freedom after this book.

Eric Jerome Dickey’s Naughty or Nice was super hot and funny.  Michael “CarpeDiem0707” Davidson and Olivia “Livvy” McBroom Badera are my favorite characters.  There is nothing on this earth that can match a woman’s orgasm.  Michael “Carpe” reminded me of being such a terrible person to the women in Atlanta, Georgia; Washington, District of Columbia; Maryland; and Chicago, Illinois for making the pussy or vagina talk, vibrate, gush, and sing, and put the women to sleep.  Atlanta gave me my first Male-Female-Male (MFM) ménage à trois, but I will experience my Female-Female-Male-Female (FFMF) or Female-Male-Female (FMF) before I leave this world.  My self-pleasure (masturbation) to all my fantasies with women is so fulfilling.  Second chances on anything or anyone is where I get f*cked up with the exception of Planet Fitness and Crunch Fitness, or the gyms, and track and field.  I believe and know there is an abundance of first chances and I will continue to chase those first chances until the end of time.  I am that motherf*cking sex athlete.

E. Lynn Harris’s What Becomes of the Brokenhearted is well deserving, and connects all the books together or at least gives the backdrop of how the books are written.  I saved this book for last.  Washington, DC’s Black Pride Memorial Day weekend was strong in 1980s and still going strong in 2020s.  So many memories for me.  Traxx nightclub DC was around in the 1980s….I did not see it until the 1990s.  Good times dancing and chatting up conversation, and lots and lots of hugs.  E. Lynn Harris books are therapeutic for plenty of various topics.  It is disappointing how introverted E. Lynn Harris was, but real as alcoholism takes over, depression takes life to a specific low, and introverts driven for all their love in one person.  I am very touched by his books coming at the right time of my life.  Thank you, E. Lynn Harris and co-authors.  Thanks to the publishing company, actors, and actresses making the audiobooks possible.

I love all of you despite all our differences.  I am grateful for the organizations I joined, programs I participated, and schools/universities attended.  I am grateful for therapy, medical, medication, and health help by all the research, doctors, nurses, and other heroes.  I am grateful for my families, my friends, my social networks, my teammates, my peers, my co-workers, and those I met once in meetings, passing by, or conversations.  I never took anything or anyone for granted.  I am healing, but willing to talk and discuss about anything.  I appreciate and love myself, and my spirit.  God is the best person to keep first.

E. Lynn Harris and R. M. Johnson’s No One in the World was very well written.  The End leaves room for more or an encore.  Colby Aiden Winslow is my favorite character.  I did not like him at first, but he knew family.  Cissy Winslow is a close second favorite character.  Tyler, the US Senator, was a good character also describing the benefits of family and how the world sees people.  From all E. Lynn books presents attorneys as whores.  Captain-Save-A-Hoe was a funny line.  Family has it benefits, but for me, my family said my life would’ve been this way or that way and ended up being all lies for my entire life with the exception of my ex female partner that only came out right.  Everyone is a criminal in some shape or form.  However, the legal profession is making a path of reality on making someone like me a criminal despite all the education and navigation I prevented to get caught.  As a criminal, I never do random…I presented everything upfront…I send everything including the consequences directly back to the source.  Afraid of YOU…h*ll no.  This book provides the sides of what family, people, and criminals do when anyone is in a tough spot.  For Massachusetts, I tell the truth at the time it happened, then everyone does whatever it takes to turn it into lie.  Again, to reiterate “Afraid of YOU…h*ll no!”

E. Lynn Harris’s Any Way the Wind Blows was good.  John Basil Henderson is my favorite character.  Bartholomew “Bart” Dunbar reminded me so much of all the gay men that wanted to out me since I was still finding myself in life’s current mess.  This could be a root cause for me not getting along with gay men.  Ava Harrington paints a very bad picture of mothers, actors, actresses, models, and singers. I thank God I never went that or pursued that route of life for acting, modeling, and singing.  Ava’s motherhood issues do shed light that mothers can be more terrible than deadbeat dads.  Corporate America does its dirt, but I understand the rewards and consequences of doing business.   The hunt for stardom, revenge, or celebrity status is more dangerous than me and my mental health issues.  Everyone wonders why I bolt so fast OR patiently wait for all consequences for your actions, and send back paperwork to discuss the issues and tell everywhere so everyone will know what you did along with my response.

E. Lynn Harris’s A Love of My Own was also good, down-to-earth, and more realistic.  Sebastian, Zola Denise Norwood, William Jabbar Lewis, Hayden, and Drew Taylor were my favorite characters.  I guess I see the reason Corporate America did not like me because I do/did not cross the rules or boundaries, just do the work and learn, and stuck to my data/information and decisions.  I thank Corporate America second to Sports and Fitness for teaching me Termination (Let Go), Disconnect (Let Go), and Resilience (Bounce Back).  Raymond Jr and Basil was bound to happen.  Raymond Jr. and Drew reminded me to realize men can feel emotional just like women.  However, I will stick to my realism and not fairy tales.

E. Lynn Harris’s I Say a Little Prayer was hilarious from start to finish.  I laughed two days straight.  A gun toting or weapon toting Skyler, and Pastor Kenneth and First Lady Sister Vivian were my favorite characters.  I am impartial to Chauncey and Bassell because there are the 1% of people who do have self-control and can turn gay on and off, not every LGBTIQA+ or heterosexual cheats.  For example, I never cheated in any of my relationships; what happens is the moment someone says let’s go monogamous, I do all my dirt up to the verbal commitment, always plays safe and get tested, then invest all my love, trust, sexual experience, 100% full attention, and energy all into that one person, then when the person leaves or we breakup, I go right back to serial dating.  Quote from the book: “Save a Sin to not Lie to a Minister” was funny.  The gay-for-play or gay-for-pay was new terminology for me and reminded me of Harvard University COOP Bookstore having a book, "How to be Gay."  The acronyms were cute.  The names and reflection on the black culture for those and me that can relate is too funny.  I really miss and going to miss, Atlanta, Georgia, my first loving outweighs the hate city and good memories outweigh the bad memories there for me.  It is awesome to visit the Atlanta metro area.

E. Lynn Harris’s Not a Day Goes By was spectacularly angry and wonderfully written.  John Bassell Henderson and his daddy were my favorite characters.  Despite everything going on, Bassell stuck to his core and never picked a team. I dislike Raymond Jr, Zuric, and Nico for attempting to make Bassell pick a team.  The novel made me reflect on my heterosexual relationships heading in with all love and trust in women, then Yancey and Ava were revealed in the moment of change or distance or space (the difference with my females they kept the kids).  With all the Derricks (male or female) of the world, I am still wondering with my Washington, DC or Chicago residences with family or my own place, who the f*ck kept showing up at my lobby or houses, introducing the themselves, and leaving no contact information?  My families and receptionist told me constantly.

James Baldwin’s Go Tell It On the Mountain was seriously good to find out what happened before my birth.  Richard and Debra were my favorite characters.  Richard was strong and had my attitude, “Do me motherf*ckers!” and take them down right with him, but I am sorry he committed suicide after being set free without knowing he was a daddy and his soul was broken after being jailed for no reason. Debra was strong to show how stand by a cheating husband and pastor, and keep his sins with him even while he pastors a church or being a missionary.  New York been doing its shady sh*t then in the 1910s, 1920s, 1930s, 1940s, 1950s, 1960s until now and the future.  Latinos and everyone else want this country, and history repeats itself repeatedly just with new folks.  Everyone, including Jesus, was and is a sinner.  Adultery, Violators of the Ten Commandments, and everything was dumped at my doorstep and I never complained or created drama in the 1980s, 1990s, 2000s until 2007.  Thanks to my higher being or God for keeping me safe back then and now.

E. Lynn Harris’s Basketball Jones was okay.  No favorite characters in this one.  However out of guilt and not knowing, for and to all my 1980s, 1990s, 2000s male and female friends, my sincere apologies “I AM SORRY” if I lied out of not knowing what I was saying via any communication method in the 1980s, 1990s, and 2000s, or did not tend to your needs as I should have, or did not give you the opportunity to be with me.  More power to new beginnings as the story showed.

E. Lynn Harris’s Just Too Good to Be True was slightly depressing.  Sports Athletes, I am amazed at the sports industry and I thought direct sales in Corporate America was hard.  Women, the church and family culture, and disowning your own kids really surprised me and bad jokes are harmful. I did not know.  Delmarr and Sylvester are my favorite characters in this one.

E. Lynn Harris's Abide With Me was more realistic. The World is Evil and I am glad I got mine out early. I may still be suffering, but better position. I was Raymond Tyler Jr mixed with Nicole until 2007. Thanks for my ten (10) Delaney friends. Bassell is too funny and reminds of every sport athlete or military person I ran across. Jared is my dude and still reminds me of my past, current, and future dream type of life always keep trying. Delaney is my stand-up girl. "Family and Friends at a distance."

Just As I Am by E. Lynn Harris is one of the most powerful and relevant novels read or heard so far. Some much Black love poured into it. 15 Hours of Listening...I couldn't stop listening. Self-Reflection, Retrospection of Culture, and Healing Therapy for me. No change in my rules.

E. Lynn Harris’s Invisible Life was relevant and spot on the cards life dealt. Thank you for letting me know my life was unique and okay to be me, a Black man. Black authors can write……….Words from a Stranger provides Healing.

If Beale Street Could Talk by James Baldwin is hot 🔥 🥵

Make me wanna have twenty (20) babies

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